I was dreaming. It was a good dream too. I was on a beach snapping pictures, when suddenly the ground beneath me gave way and I found myself falling down a hole of darkness. Wake up! I heard. My eyes immediately shot open, panic embracing me as it always does during such times of chaos. What just happened? Why can’t I breathe? The ventilator keeps turning off and on, giving no air whatsoever. I have no idea what is going on other than the fact that I am suffocating fast. I have no ability to even utter a syllable, let alone call for help. An event like this typically rolls around every few months when I least anticipate it. It’s always a simple matter of something coming disconnected, though. Not this time. Did I mention I am struggling more than ever with coming off my ventilator? It’s just par for the course of SMA, which I pray will improve once I begin the new treatment. I can barely come off for 3 minutes now. Is this it? NO! I will not die tonight! I will fight until I can’t fight anymore! So I did. My only hope was that when my oxygen and heart rate began to drop low, the nurse would start investigating. So I just had to wait. And I did. The problem is when oxygen saturations drop so low, it’s like drowning slowly. The machine started alarming and the nurse ran in my room. You could say I was nearing the point of no return, but I was still fighting. She uncovered my eyes but I couldn’t respond. She called for Mom who came to the rescue as always. Typically upon oxygen restoration I am an emotional wreck. This was different, though, because I had already determined that God would get me through this. It’s amazing when you know that God has a purpose for you because he literally gave me strength that I never had to hang on.

The battle to survive lies in trusting an almighty God who has a perfect plan, along with having enough tenacity to not let Satan have the upper hand in producing fear. The victory lies in understanding that, whether I live or not, I win either way! Conquer fear and you can conquer anything in this life. Make Satan mad and let go of the fear weighing you down today.

29: Signed Sealed & Committed Case

If you need me, I’ll be resting.

xoxo

29: Signed Sealed & Committed Adultery

29: Signed, Sealed and Committed. They’re starry-eyed. They’re headed for the altar. Only one thing - who are “they”? Eugene and Katrina? Jack and Joanne? Whit and - Whit??! Join the fun as a handful of local kids threaten to go on a “chore strike”, city slicker Nick takes up residence with. Preview, buy, and download songs from the album #29: Signed, Sealed & Committed, including '372: For Whom the Wedding Bells Toll, Pt. 1 of 3,' '373: For Whom the Wedding Bells Toll, Pt. 2 of 3,' '374: For Whom the Wedding Bells Toll, Pt. 3 of 3,' and many more. Buy the album for $17.99. Songs start at @@cheapestTrackPrice@@. I’ve been a fan of Signed, Sealed, Delivered since the Pilot premiered on Oct. I’ve seen the live premiere of every episode and movie. Signed, Sealed, Delivered is unique in the television world. There is nothing else like it. Hallmark has a new slogan “When You Care Enough You Can Change The World.”.

Amber Stewart